I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. I know you’re going to think in a minute, “Does she ever think about anything but getting another baby?” My simple answer is YES, but it’s something I want so badly that it’s hard for me control. Plus for me, I think all the time and sometimes I think so much that my brain hurts.
Anyway, back to the point of this post. Barry and I have been praying as to what we should at this point. The answer came and He has promised there is a baby for us but we are to continue waiting, endure the waiting, and be content with what the He has already given us. Not exactly what I wanted to hear but how can you argue with God. The scriptures tell us that we are to become “as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.”
So I’ve been thinking how can submit to Heavenly Father’s will and wait any longer? I’ve concluded that His answer to be content is my answer. I admit that I struggle with being satisfied. It’s always the next thing that will solve everything. My next question is, how can I be content? The answer came to me the other day. I need to count my blessings (a.k.a. express gratitude). I remember a while back Oprah was on a big kick about gratitude journals. I’ve decided to start one in my quest to change and be content. Not only am I hoping it will get me through the wait but I also hope it will invoke the law of attraction (negative attracts negative, positive attracts positive). Barry is always gripping about my negativity. And yes, I am frequently negative. Maybe this journal will be my way to stop being so negative. Now if I can just make it a habit so no matter how hard this waiting gets, I can remember my blessings and write down 5 things I’m thankful for every night.
Here is a little audio clip from Oprah’s XM radio talk show about gratitude. It’s really good.
You might like my posting about "3 is a Magic Number." Hop on over to JamesStephanieKayley.blogspot.com to watch the video.
ReplyDeleteI have been using this as a mantra for the last few days helping me to be content with being a family of 3.
It is temporary after all. =) We just have to wait...(I know, right...har!).
it's great to see you making changes. they are REALLY hard to do sometimes. keep your chin up!!
ReplyDeleteRebecca, I know your answers are your Heavenly Father guiding you. Be diligent in you gratitude journal and keep putting the next step forward. You have an absolutely awesome family. I love you so much. The time will pass more quickly than you realize-so don't miss the opportunity to be happy being who you are- the three of you. Love, Mom
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